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My Writing

Most of it is on AO3 at [ profile] pearwaldorf but shorter works reside on Tumblr

Transformative Works Policy

In the unlikely event you would actually do such a thing, blanket permission for derivative works (sequels, remixes, podfic, fanart, etc.) is granted, provided you link me back to it so I can flail at you. Credit and a link back to the original work is appreciated, but not necessary. If a work is archive-locked, please archive-lock the derivative work as well. Thanks.
pearwaldorf: (da2 - hawke closeup)
I know that lists are always subjective, but any article that discusses bad Dragon Age dates without mentioning Anders is objectively fucking wrong. He literally drags you through the sewers to get material for his pipe bomb and basically says "If you loved me you wouldn't ask me what I need this for." And then he blows up a Chantry.

And to add further insult, David Gaider had to chime in with his own stupid opinions about the validity of the list and inserting his own wrong opinions about characters he fucking wrote. It is amazing to me that he can be so obtuse and churlish about characters I thought he understood, like Alistair and Fenris. They're both fucked up, which is definitely reflected in the relationships (romantic or not) you have with them. But to say they're as bad or worse to date than a fucking terrorist, traitor/child murderer, and dickish old god? Come the fuck on.

I am trying this new faux whisperspace thingI feel very strongly about accurate character interpretation OK? I'll go with you anywhere as long as I can see a logical progression from the canon to your conclusion. But if you just do something and insist this is the same character, that's when I get annoyed. idc if you created them to begin with.
pearwaldorf: shepard and garrus shooting bottles on the citadel (me - s&g bottles)
(note to self: need food icon)

I went to Chicago last week, because my company thinks the ass end of January is an excellent time to have a company meeting. [ profile] juleshastweets and I went to Band of Bohemia, which is probably the only Michelin-starred restaurant I will ever be able to afford to eat at (unless you count that one hawker stand in Singapore). We looked at the beer menu and decided 10:00 wasn't too early for a flight.

The food was amazing and artfully prepared. I had shrimp and grits and it was sublime: a drizzle of red eye gravy, lardons of bacon, and a little bit of chard to cut through the richness. Also they had chocolate malt cured bacon and it was honestly the best fucking bacon I've ever had in my life: the perfect balance between crispy and chewy that ensured I will never be able to become a vegan. 

The best thing we had were the madeleines with candied citrus and matcha white chocolate ganache. The madeleines were fresh out of the oven and now I understand why Proust was so damn hype about them. The edges were perfectly crisp, and together with the candied citrus (I think they were kumquats?) and the ganache they were amazing. I'm sure the dish would have been quite good at room temperature but the madeleines being fresh elevated it to something amazing. I am legitimately upset I now know this is a thing that exists in the world and I can't have it whenever I want. So I guess I have to learn how to make madeleines and ganache.
pearwaldorf: (books - reading is sexy)
It has been a great while (seven years, if Goodreads is to be trusted) since I've read more than ten books a year. It is not a state of things I'm particularly happy with, but my ability to focus on things for an extended and continuous period of time has not been great. 

When I actually do get to reading, it tends to be during travel. For whatever reason I find it easier to focus when I have lots and lots of slack time. But! I read a book this month! And it was amazing! I missed it a lot!

So I read the first book in Tamora Pierce's Numair series, Tempests and SlaughterRead more... )
pearwaldorf: (misc - get excited)
Day 8

In your own space, post self-recs for at least three fanworks that you created. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I am still pleased by a couple short character pieces I did for campaign 1 of Critical Role: can we get a little grace (Cassandra de Rolo) and Kintsukuroi (Kynan).

I am usually an incredibly slow writer, so I'm very pleased this piece (nsfw) I banged out (heh) in less than 24 hours for the Adoribull porn challenge holds up quite well. 

Here is a terribly melancholy Bodhi/Galen piece I did for Chocolate Box a couple years ago.

I feel like one of the nicest things is getting enough critical and emotional distance from things you've written that you can legit enjoy them. I'm quite proud of this Karen/Foggy/Matt porn.
pearwaldorf: a foggy mirror with a heart drawn on it. a little speech bubble in the middle says "you" (misc - love you)
Day 6

In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.

I would like a modern (as in post-2008) guide to vidding for beginners. Not how to find source or use a NLE type stuff (that's easy), but incredibly basic things like "wtf is a NLE, why shouldn't I use iMovie or Windows Movie Maker, how to clip, do I even need to clip?" It was all stuff that I thought would have been easily accessible, but was super not. I can write one, but if somebody else has already done the thing, that's even better.
More fic for Critical Role campaign 1 rare(r)pairs. I feel like the big ships just took over when they became canon (like Percy/Vex) and elbowed out consideration for anything else. Grog/Keyleth, Grog/Vax, Percy/Pike, Pike/Vax? (And a real fucking long-shot, but Kynan/Jarett?) Give it to meeeee.

Concrit on my writing and vids from people I trust is always something I want/need, but it's hard because it's kind of time-intensive.

I need new icons, now that I'm back on Dreamwidth. The problem is I don't really know what things I want icons of. The big stuff is covered, but I have so many other slots to fill!

pearwaldorf: martha jones from doctor who (dw - martha smirky)
Shoutout to [community profile] plainstyles who is doing the Lord's work by making beautiful, elegant, and responsive(!!) Dreamwidth layouts. If you are in need of a new layout, check them out. 

I also have some layouts saved here, but I haven't looked at the older ones in forever and have no idea how well they still work.
pearwaldorf: (books - reading is sexy)
Day 3

In your own space, share a favorite piece of original canon (a TV episode, a song, a favorite interview, a book, a scene from a movie, etc) and explain why you love it so much. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

First, a salty digression you are free to skip.
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I don't remember where I was when I first saw Many Moons, the first video from her EP Metropolis Suite 1: The Chase. But I can tell you it blew my goddamn mind. 2008 was still in the tail end of some real bad years for (pop) music, when "Bad Romance" felt like a revelation, and Many Moons wasn't like anything I'd ever heard before. It still isn't.

Everything about the video is high-concept and sci-fi as shit, but centers a black woman--many copies of a black woman in fact. The way she connects the plight of the androids and the black experience isn't original to sci-fi or probably even Afrofuturism, but the way in which she does it, in just six minutes? This is stellar worldbuilding that makes you want to immerse yourself in everything it has to offer.

I'm not going to lie, it's pretty dense, and like I said, high-concept as shit. It's not meant for everybody, but for the people it speaks to, it does so very strongly. I'm so glad we get to see more of the world she started building in Metropolis in Archandroid and Electric Lady, and whenever she wants to finish up Cindi Mayweather's story, there are lots of people who will be glad to hear it.

pearwaldorf: a foggy mirror with a heart drawn on it. a little speech bubble in the middle says "you" (misc - love you)
Day 2

Rec at least three fanworks that you didn’t create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

Below are the last three fics I read and enjoyed. I also made a list of fics from this year's Yuletide that I liked, and here are my gifts.

when you and I collide by [ profile] lizzen (Game of Thrones, Daenerys Targaryen/Jon Snow)
(S7 spoilers I guess, incest)
I don't actually go here but sometimes I read the fic anyways? The first chapter is some nice PWP, the second is melancholy reflection. 

Ebb and Flow
 by [ profile] ladybug_21 (Aquaman, Atlanna & Vulko backstory)
(spoilers for movie)
Really dig this deep dive (heh) into a relationship that's hinted at but not explored at all in the movie. 

some sun has got to rise by [ profile] allapplesfall (Critical Role, Pike-centric) 
(spoilers for campaign 1, death of a parental figure) 
This wonderfully chewy long fic about Pike dealing with Wilhand's death is really really good and made me cry multiple times because it has hit me in the goolies about the death of a grandparent. 

pearwaldorf: Will Graham sitting in front of a wall. His expression is blank. (hannibal - will wall)
I finished S2 of Hannibal today.

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pearwaldorf: a line drawing of a human heart. red roses are stuck through it (misc - roses heart)

Day 1

In your own space, talk about your Happy Placeā€”the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I find putting things in order very soothing. Which is both unsurprising (I have a library and information science degree) and hilarious if you know how messy I tend to be. tag wrangling digression/grumping )

Nowadays, I scratch that itch doing work for crtranscript, a fan project that captions episodes of Critical Role. Mostly I edit and timeset captions. It's a thing I'm damn proud to be part of, because it has such tangible benefits for so many people, and the work we do is professional caliber.

I also do a weekly cat care shift at a local shelter. Usually I'm in charge of the kittens, and the other person does the cats. It's very satisfying to see immediate results of the things I do, even if sometimes it results in unpleasant litterbox disasters. I enjoy watching the kittens become less shy and more outgoing, and spending time with the ones that are already friendly and well-socialized.

Lest you think I am nothing but virtuous, I also spend a great deal of time laying in bed playing stupid mobile games. Right now there's a lot of Angry Birds Match, and various Picross games (Two Eyes is my current favorite, Hungry Cat Picross is more difficult but you get a cat and unlockable customizations). They scratch the same sort of putting things in order itch the other things do, but with less positive impact.

pearwaldorf: (misc - get excited)
Hey there. Thanks for doing this. The fact that people are even willing to consider things I want in stories is enough, so I’m sure I’ll love whatever you create. If you have an idea in mind already, great! But if you need something a little more concrete to work with (as I do), please look below.

Also I have no idea how to prompt for art and I'm really really sorry. I can barely draw stick figures, so if it looks vaguely person-ish, I will be happy.

You probably don’t know me. Here are places you can find me:

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Things I like )

Do not want )

The Dragon Prince )The Arcana (Visual Novel) )Horizon: Zero Dawn )Rogue One, Star Wars OT )
pearwaldorf: a b&w picture of Carrie Fisher in the Hoth outfit from ESB. She has a big grin on her face. (Default)

1. Your main fandom of the year?
Critical Role, probably, with side ventures into Venom, Voltron, and Hannibal.

2. Your favorite film watched this year?
I liked a lot of things for different reasons. Venom and Aquaman are stupid, schlocky brain candy. Black Panther, Get Out, and Widows were fucking brilliant re-imaginings of old genres. Crazy Rich Asians had people who looked like me, and I got to hear my mom say "I recognize this experience from my own life" about it.

3. Your favorite book read this year?
I only read two this year /o\ and I liked them both for different reasons. Bad Feminist by Roxane Gay is a great little collection of essays. Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott is a book that makes you feel less alone about being a writer.

4. Your favorite TV show of the year?
It didn't feel like a very TV-heavy year for me. I've been watching Hannibal on the bus, and I do like it a lot. I also watched a ton of Voltron and it's a perfectly fine show that does not deserve its fandom one bit.

5. Your favorite online fandom community of the year?
Twitter and Tumblr pocket friends! They are my sanity check and encouragement.

6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year?
The Arcana visual novel. I found it when I was going through a brief otome games phase and it's the only one that's actually stuck, probably because the writing is great and the art is beautiful. I love all the characters and I find almost all of their romance paths satisfying (Julian took a while to get there, but I'm glad to see he's getting actual character growth).

7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year?
Infinity War, probably. But what else is new?

8. Your TV boyfriend of the year?
Not from TV (or even a boy, but he uses he/him pronouns), but Asra from The Arcana. He has pretty floofy white hair and purple eyes. There's only so much I can resist in the face of that.

9. Your TV girlfriend of the year?
Again, also not TV, but Nakia from Black Panther.

10. Your biggest squee moment of the year?
A revelation about your PC concerning the plague in The Arcana that is revealed only through Asra's path. I may have shrieked a little. The new Critical Role campaign.

11. The most missed of your old fandoms?
Did I have time to miss fandoms this year? I don't feel like I did.

12. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to?
Killing Eve. I still need to see Into the Spiderverse.

13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?
Finishing up Voltron. Watching the rest of She-Ra and the Princesses of Power. Men in Black: International. GODZILLA: KING OF THE MONSTERS. LOOK AT THIS RIDICULOUSNESS. MY BODY IS SO FUCKING READY. Captain Marvel.

pearwaldorf: shepard and garrus on menae (me - s&g menae)
Down to Portland to visit some friends from New York who are in town for the holidays. (The good thing about having friends everywhere is you have crash space when you go to far-flung cities. The bad thing about having friends everywhere is you get to see them once a year if you're lucky.)

We have all been living away from Portland long enough that the city does not feel like it used to. I mean, that is to be expected, given that we moved away in the mid oughts and the city has changed drastically, but only people who have grown up here will understand when you say there are white people on Williams Avenue. Willingly. (And that now all the black people have been priced out, they feel safe putting up Black Lives Matter signs in their little boutiques and coffee shops.) 

It's not that I don't enjoy Portland now, but I enjoy it the way a tourist does: via Yelp and research from other people. I don't know the city anymore, where to find the good Ethiopian places or which food cart pod is likely to have the particular cuisine I'm craving that day. I know the gentrification began even during the time I still lived there, but it's not comfortable to realize places you used to hang out (Hawthorne, Belmont, Division) look literally nothing like they used to.

There's still vestiges of old Portland, past 39th (excuse me, Cesar Chavez Blvd. It acknowledges the fact there aren't many black or brown people anymore by renaming major roads after them. Interstate Avenue, a major thoroughfare through historically black north Portland, is now renamed after Rosa Parks). Foster Road still remains stubbornly familiar, even if the old piano place where I used to take lessons is now an actual theater as opposed to a giant warehouse, and nobody knows the reason the Peterson Plaza strip mall is called such is because the old Tom Peterson store used to be there. 82nd Avenue has become a beautiful, rich hub of Asian food and shopping, with some incredibly cheap and tasty food. (This guide to P-town from the local alt-weekly made me laugh.)

We had breakfast at Best Baguette, a place we've passed for years but never went in. They serve banh mi, French-style sandwiches on baguettes, and the most amazing croissant breakfast sandwiches, washed down with incredibly potent Vietnamese iced coffee. While we ate, old Asian men filtered in with their hot and iced coffee. Sometimes they would go outside in groups to smoke and bullshit. That felt like old Portland, a place where people can make a life for themselves in the city and visit with some friends in a place that feels welcoming. It didn't feel like home, but close enough that maybe it's still possible.
pearwaldorf: it's not often a friendship lasts two lifetimes (ds9 - dax sisko bffs)

GUYS. Did you know that Semagic still exists? And it's still being nominally maintained? It's still not quite as good as a web-based drafts feature, but it is another option.

I've gotten so used to using the web-based composer on Dreamwidth that it's hard to remember pretty much everything went through Semagic on LiveJournal: entry composition, friends list reading, things I don't even remember anymore but I know were doable through the client.

I don't know if I'm going to keep using it, but mostly I'm amused this thing from the days of ancients still works, like an old Apple IIe with Oregon Trail.

If you'd like to configure it for Dreamwidth, see instructions below the cut.

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pearwaldorf: a b&w picture of Carrie Fisher in the Hoth outfit from ESB. She has a big grin on her face. (Default)
I wasn't going to do one of these this year but goddamn it, I fought hard for every word, and that should be acknowledged.


Posted under a sockpuppet [redacted]
you know I love it, so please don't stop it (MCU; Peter/MJ/Shuri)
Dog person (MCU; Pepper and Peter)
(I get a feeling that) I should have been home yesterday (Critical Role; Mollymauk)
good bones (Critical Role; Nila)
Tumblr ficlets



This does not reflect the metric fuckton of editing and timesetting I did for CRTranscripts, or the work I've been putting in project managing the FPOTF/NOOO stuff, both of which ate up a lot of time this year. Or the non-fandom volunteering, including my weekly gig at the cat shelter.


I'm not pleased that my word count is even lower than it was last year, but I had much less external impetus to write (I didn't complete any challenges/exchanges). 

And copypasta from last year, because it seems worth repeating: If, despite everything, you were able to produce work this year, congratulations. And if you couldn't, that's okay too. Next year will hopefully be better.


I was really pleased with Good Bones. I haven't written first person in a fucking eon, but nothing else felt right. 


Nothing this year! I feel like everything was appreciated the exact right amount.


By enthusiasm, you know I love it; by comments, Dog person.


There’s a smile on MJ’s face as she turns towards Shuri, kissing her slow and leisurely, like she intends to make the most of this experience. Shuri’s eyes widen for a moment before she relaxes into it, and it’s the first time Peter’s seen her surprised by anything. But MJ’s a force of nature, enough to bowl over even a princess. He feels a surge of pride and fondness in that fact, even if he is in no way responsible for any of it.


You know I love it, for sure. 


“How primitive.” Shuri looks up from whatever she’s doing on her Kimoyo console. “In Wakanda, if somebody likes someone else, they tell them how many rhinos they would offer for the privilege of their companionship.”
“Really?” Peter can never tell when Shuri’s joking sometimes, and is too afraid to ask.
“No, white boy, we agonize about it in private group chats and avoid the subject completely in front of each other just like you do.” Shuri becomes thoughtful for a moment. “I think the rhino thing may have been just Okoye and W’Kabi. He’s weird like that.”


Yes, this was the Mighty Nein. There were four of them. I don’t know why either.


Dog person. Pepper and I don't really spend a lot of time together, so I was honestly surprised she's much less irritated at Tony than I expected her to be? I'm sure there are moments where she's quite ready to kill him, but it's modulated by a lot of affection. 


A look back at last year's: 

After the election, and looking ahead to the next year or four, I have been thinking about what I can do as a creative person, outside of direct activist/volunteer work, to support people's spirits during what will undoubtedly be some grim times. I think about how after the election, being able to dive into a fic for a little while was such comfort. I hope to write stories about connection, friendship, and resistance with as much love and care as possible. 

I do not know if I succeeded, but I hope my fics brought a little bit of solace to those who needed it. My goal next year remains the same. I don't know what horrors another year of this administration holds, but I think we will be in great need of escape and comfort from it, if only for a little bit.

(Creative) Survival is still a laudable ambition. I will endeavor to produce as much as I can creatively, and hopefully exceed this year's incredibly pathetic word count. I haven't made a vid in a while, and I have a new NLE (VEGAS Pro 15) to take for a spin. Art is also part of resistance, and integrating it more into my life will be good. 
pearwaldorf: amy pond likes the snow. and scarves. (dw - amy snow)
Merry Christmas to those who celebrate, and happy day off to those who don’t. I hope it is full of good things for you.
It is also Yuletide, and I got two gifts this year, which was unexpected and delightful.
The first is a delightful bit of Crimson Peak canon divergence (Edith/Lucille/Thomas). It’s prickly and combative and I love the way both Edith and Lucille are characterized in this. I could definitely see them negotiating their relationship in this manner, and I would absolutely read another 100K words about it.
The second is for The Dragon Prince. Viren reflects upon his previous uses of dark magic while getting ready for Harrow’s funeral. Nicely introspective, and shows his current decisions in context of a long trajectory.
pearwaldorf: martha jones from doctor who (dw - martha smirky)
Second in a series of entries where I talk about my vids. Mostly self-indulgence, but also explication of some of the stuff that I (as a vidder) think about when putting one together.

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pearwaldorf: a bisexual flag color themed d20 surrounded by crystals, flowers, and a blue mana potion, all in the same palette (misc - bi d20)

For various reasons I haven't been caught up on Critical Role, so I hadn't actually seen the new intro until now? It makes me smile so much. Obviously this is made by the same people who did the D&D Beyond theme (all hail the Areopagitas, who HAND-ANIMATED THE M9 INTRO) and I really really love the Saturday morning cartoon feel of both of them. (Ahahaha I just realized they deliberately made the animation style simpler for the D&D Beyond video and in 4:3. Nice touch guys.)

As a piece of marketing/branding the M9 intro is fucking brilliant. I was trying to figure out what it reminded me of, and then I realized this is basically an incredibly involved piece of commissioned fanart, made in collaboration with the cast. So it feels very organic and... close to the brand in a way that I think bigger outfits try to emulate and fail at. (I feel like that's what they're trying to go for in this Zayn video--look! He's a global superstar but he still hangs out with his friends in Bradford where he grew up! But it's all just a little too well-lit and nobody's too unconventionally attractive, y'know?) 
pearwaldorf: shepard and garrus on menae (me - s&g menae)
This year has been simultaneously the longest and has also passed incredibly quickly, and if that doesn't tell you time is relative idk what will. 

As part of its year in review, The Ringer did a piece on how Anthony Bourdain's creative partners (who have worked with him since A Cook's Tour) finished up the last five episodes of Parts Unknown. There's a little bit at the end that just breaks my fucking heart. 

discussion of suicide )
pearwaldorf: black widow with explosions behind her (avengers - black widow explosions)
This is mostly an exercise in self-indulgence, because nobody asks me about my vids and I want to talk about them. It is also my hope that talking about it demystifies the process and experience for people who want to learn how to vid and are intimidated, or are new to the thing and want some alternate perspectives.

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