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Jun. 18th, 2021 09:46 amI suppose it is probably time for an update on The State of the Alice. As you may or may not know, I was laid off from my previous job at the end of last year. ngl, it was extremely rough, especially the last couple weeks; but with some rest, distance, and updates from the water cooler Discord it is definitely a blessing, or at least a bullet dodged.
A friend had a line on a job that would be interesting and pays a ridiculous amount more than my previous position, and that seemed like a real excellent prospect, but that was the end of February. Despite my periodic check-ins, I don't think I'm going to be hearing back one way or another until next month. Honestly, I'm thinking of letting them remember I exist and see how long it takes before they reach out. Bitchy, yes, but I think entirely warranted given how long this malarkey has been going on.
(Rest assured, if this works out in my favor, there will be Words about this.)
I've spent a lot of time the past month or so resolutely avoiding resuming the job search, mainlining the rest of Campaign 2 of Critical Role, and doing an appalling amount of embroidery, while feeling bad about not doing the things I "should". And my therapist was like "So what exactly does doing all the stuff you should look like in practice?"
It's a perfectly sensible question, especially when my brain worms tend to be concerned with vague amorphous concepts. You can't do a whole job hunt in a day, so it's extremely stupid to be anxious about not having a job when your unemployment isn't even close to running out.
And getting back into the hunt has been helpful. Certainly there are lots of positions that are boring as hell, but also some that would be extremely cool and/or interesting. Critical Role is hiring for a customer support manager. A former coworker posted a program manager position for a piece of software that has something to do with tracking illegal fishing. I don't expect to get either of them, but might as well give it a shot.
Learning that ADHD people can hyperfixate on not just subjects but also people and situations was extremely illuminating, and explains a lot about some decisions I've made in the past. It's also helped make me aware of my tendency to put all my eggs in a basket whether it's realistic or not. (It's one thing to tell yourself "I shouldn't do this" but completely another to actually not, y'know?)
Anyways. I feel like this has been the most clear-headed I've felt in a while, and it's good. I still don't have a job, but I'll find one, and it'll be okay.
A friend had a line on a job that would be interesting and pays a ridiculous amount more than my previous position, and that seemed like a real excellent prospect, but that was the end of February. Despite my periodic check-ins, I don't think I'm going to be hearing back one way or another until next month. Honestly, I'm thinking of letting them remember I exist and see how long it takes before they reach out. Bitchy, yes, but I think entirely warranted given how long this malarkey has been going on.
(Rest assured, if this works out in my favor, there will be Words about this.)
I've spent a lot of time the past month or so resolutely avoiding resuming the job search, mainlining the rest of Campaign 2 of Critical Role, and doing an appalling amount of embroidery, while feeling bad about not doing the things I "should". And my therapist was like "So what exactly does doing all the stuff you should look like in practice?"
It's a perfectly sensible question, especially when my brain worms tend to be concerned with vague amorphous concepts. You can't do a whole job hunt in a day, so it's extremely stupid to be anxious about not having a job when your unemployment isn't even close to running out.
And getting back into the hunt has been helpful. Certainly there are lots of positions that are boring as hell, but also some that would be extremely cool and/or interesting. Critical Role is hiring for a customer support manager. A former coworker posted a program manager position for a piece of software that has something to do with tracking illegal fishing. I don't expect to get either of them, but might as well give it a shot.
Learning that ADHD people can hyperfixate on not just subjects but also people and situations was extremely illuminating, and explains a lot about some decisions I've made in the past. It's also helped make me aware of my tendency to put all my eggs in a basket whether it's realistic or not. (It's one thing to tell yourself "I shouldn't do this" but completely another to actually not, y'know?)
Anyways. I feel like this has been the most clear-headed I've felt in a while, and it's good. I still don't have a job, but I'll find one, and it'll be okay.
