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[pearwaldorf]

Unsurprisingly, it's not been a great couple weeks for mental health. Between Jacob Blake, murders of people at protests for Jacob Blake, and everything else that is life as usual in 2020, it has not been amazing. I feel like it hasn't been this bad in a while. 

And of all the things that feel like a truly gratuitous kick in the teeth, it's Chadwick Boseman's death that makes me want to lay on the floor and not get up for a long time. It's not just a matter of grief, but that my brain is having a hard time processing it. The last time I felt like this was when Prince and Bowie died. Like, how does a force of nature just disappear, subject to a thing so pedestrian as mortality?

Obviously this was not the case, and I don't even know why I'm so fucked up about it. But here we are. 

I'm tired and sad and would very much like for something good to happen. But it probably won't.

Comments

[nonelvis]

I keep seeing posts about what a genuinely decent human being Boseman was, and it keeps feeling like a gut punch. He had everything ahead of him, and this shitty disease took him far too soon. I almost feel like if we'd known he was sick, if his death hadn't come as such a complete surprise, it would have been easier to deal with – it'd still have hurt a whole lot, but we'd have expected it. But he had every right to keep this private for any number of reasons, and I'm glad that he had his family with him when he passed.

Anyway, I'm sorry you're tired and sad and that this isn't helping. I wish I had anything good to offer beyond recipes, sympathy, and virtual hugs, but you have all of those if you need them <3

[potofsoup]

::sends hugs:: yeah hardsame.... it's just like... there's no emotion left to muster

[silveradept]

2020 is the year that just refuses to stop sucking. Everybody is out of cope and the bad things just keep happening all the same.

[nrgburst]

*hugs* I feel the exact same way.

[gold_pen_leaps]

It's tough to find the balance between knowing what's going on in the world and staying mentally healthy, these days.

News tends to focus on the emergencies and the bad stuff. Not to mention, the human brain is wired to remember bad stuff better than good stuff.

I do my best to find the good in small comforts, like a hot shower or a cup of tea. It's not a "cure", by any means, but it is something.