LIST OF FANWORKS: already the world entire
(Captain America, Steve/Sam)I guess we're here, once again
(DAI, Dagna/Lace Harding)Unexpected
(DAI, Cullen/Dorian)if you are alive, give more now
(DAI, Cassandra/Josephine)may every nail be shown
(Captain America, Steve/Bucky)as the love that's gonna shine
(MCU, Steve/Sam)and if it's just tonight it's all in love
(DAI, Dorian/Iron Bull)
*mumble* (it's locked on AO3, so I'm not linking to it)we woke the snow
(DAI, Cullen/Dorian)we wore the jacket for the longest time
(TFA, Finn/Poe/Rey)taste the stardust in my mouth
(TFA, Poe/Rey, Finn/Poe/Rey)there is so much more inside me now
(TFA, Rey & Luke)various Tumblr ficletsassorted graphics/very short vids
TOTAL WORD COUNT FOR THE YEAR:
35386, which I think is perfectly respectable, considering last year it was ~15K?
If you're curious, this is how it broke down by fandom (I spent half an hour figuring this out so fuck yes I'm going to share):
Dragon Age: Inquisition - 14407
MCU/Captain America - 8627
The Force Awakens - 7753
Other (Hamilton, Dishonored, Steven Universe, DS9, Daredevil, *mumble*) - 2432
I overshot my expected word count this year, so I'm pleased.
I was curious about a few things, so I kept notes out of my own curiosity about what sorts of perspectives I wrote from and what I wrote. Here's what I kept track of:
Het (outside of the context of an OT3) - 900 (2.9%)
Femslash - 1802 (5.8%)
Female POV - 8122 (22.9%)
POC (in a "real-world" context, so Sam Wilson counts, but Dorian Pavus would not) - 3246 (10.4%)
Obviously there's mathematical hinkiness with saying only certain types of characters/works count, but I don't remember why exactly I thought that only "real-world" contexts count, especially considering the sorts of, ah, discussions we seem to be having in lots of fandoms regardless of genre about characters of color, but it seemed an important distinction at the time. (I suspect that if I included characters like Dorian and Poe as part of the criteria, that last percentage would be even higher.)
Looking at the list of fanworks, it's clear to me that the works with female POVs tend to be the shorter ones: mostly ficlets that usually don't make it to AO3. Maybe that's something I should try and work on next year. I am genuinely surprised by how little het I write. Maybe I should write more. :P
In October I put my name in for Wham! Splat! Porn!
, which is an Adoribull 24 hour porn challenge. I'm quite terrible at writing under pressure, so I'm really pleased that if it's just tonight it's all in love came together as well as it did.
I'm also really proud of we wore the jacket for the longest time. It's the longest story I've ever written. I know that's sad to say, but it's true.
we wore the jacket for the longest time. This was such a joy to write, even if it is a bit of a melancholy story. I just love them so much.
MOST UNDERAPPRECIATED (IMO):
Topside and if you are alive, give more now. Everybody needs to read more femslash.
we wore the jacket for the longest time, oh my god. I am so flabbergasted and gratified people seem to like it a lot. It's going to fuck up my expectations of good hit/kudos ratios forever.
STORY WITH THE SEXIEST MOMENT:
I know I said it last year too, but vulnerability is sexy. Steve and Sam talking about his wings in already the world entire, and making use of them.
STORY THAT SHIFTED MY OWN PERCEPTIONS OF A CHARACTER:
Poe and I spent a lot of time getting to know him in we wore the jacket for the longest time.
MOST FUN STORY TO WRITE:
as the love that's gonna shine. Working toward the reveal was delightful.
as the love that's gonna shine. I had a very difficult time setting up the Chekov's gun properly, for some reason. I rarely have to rework a story extensively, but this one got a lot of stuff ripped out and rewritten. I think part of the reason it was so difficult to write was I wanted the payoff without building the framework properly.
REY. FINN. POE GODDAMN DAMERON. I expected to love them, I did not expect to love them as deeply, intensely, and furiously as I do.
I don't really want to characterize it as a disappointment, because I'm in it for the fun? But I do have things I wanted to do but didn't. I finished less stuff than I expected (but I always do). I didn't finish a bunch of WIPs that have been hanging around longer than I wanted. I was going to work on the Adoribull Eagle AU but that totally didn't happen either.
MOST UNINTENTIONALLY TELLING STORY:
I think I'm pretty transparent about the things I like. Pick one, pick them all.
“I don’t want you to think I’m using you… that way. Like a thing to get off on. Not that”--here he blushed, pink in all the places Sam could see--”I mean, it’s hot, but it’s also you, and the way they’re a part of you, and--” Sam had stretched out his wings towards him then, letting Steve run his hands over and through them until he thought his mind would overload from sensation.
“When we set off to face Corypheus, I prayed to the Maker, ‘If you are kind, please let me return, and I will make the most of the life You see fit to give me.’” She looks at Josephine, eyes glimmering in the dark. “I have been cowardly, quietly pining, because it never seemed like the right time to approach you. There was always something more important. But now we have accomplished what we set out to do, and I have no more excuses left.”
I think I'm kind of not good at dialogue, but I liked these bits.
LINES/SCENES YOU’D CHANGE:
I don't let anything out the door I'm not OK with. Which is not to say there's things I couldn't have phrased better. But I could tweak forever if I was allowed, so I don't let myself.
2016 WRITING AMBITIONS:
Firstly, a look at the things I wanted to accomplish in 2015:Finish up the MCU stuff that's been hanging around. With phase three looking like a giant pile of shit and/or blah, I think it's time we took a break from each other until Cap 3.
AHAHAHAHAHA WHAT IS FINISHING THINGS YOU START. Also I was correct about the rest of phase 2 making us take a break from each other.
Finish up the Mass Effect fic that's been hanging around since 2012 oh my god
Also did not happen. Maybe next year.
Do more kinkmeme prompts. I want to get better at writing porn and this is about as low-stakes as it gets.
I wrote more porn than the previous year, and I did finally fill a kinkmeme prompt, but in the most verbose not-porny way possible, so half-credit? idk.
I don't know if I have any specfic goals for next year that I'm really hell-bent on achieving.
I think I would like to write a long story, probably the Adoribull Eagle AU, but at this point everything is so zomg TFA!!! that may be for later in the year when I can pull back a little from new fandom limerence.
Also I think I would like to write something unrepentantly trashy. Something totally dead dove do not eat that makes people who aren't into it go D: a lot.